好久没回自己的世界了

好久没回自己的世界了
突然想回去
回到原来的我
回到一片黑暗又冷漠的世界

因为带我离开我的世界的人已经不再我身边了
现在的我也已经迷了路
不知道方向
停留在十字路中间

回到自己的世界从新寻找
寻找一个像他对我好的人
寻找一个像他对我体贴的人
寻找一个像他把我放在第一位的人。

我好想他。。。
现在我才体会什么叫真正的好朋友
我有好多、好多话要和他说
好多、好多伤心事和开心事跟他分享
我。。。真的真的。。。好想他！

哥，再给我一次机会做你的弟弟，好吗？
我再也不嫌弃你对我的不好
我已经习惯活在有你的世界了
我不想再回那片寂寞又忧郁的世界
我不想再寻找人了
寻找人需要好长时间

哥，再给我一次机会吧！

我希望在我生日那天你真的会原谅我。。。
就当做是我的生日愿望吧！
13个愿望都给你，5个愿望给我，那可以了吧！

我求求你。。。求求你。。。。。。

Apologise

Sorry guys, d blog is damm funny... I oso dunno y i will blog d kind of msg.... On d day, my hse gt party.... So my fren come to my hse and play and eat... And v drank many alcohol... My sister told me tat, on d day i drank too much oredi.... and summore i simply typeing some msg to blog up.... Den i just went to check... And oops... I really funny... Blog up an untruth msg... And make so many ppl misunderstand oredi... D thing didn't happen at all... So guys, dun misunderstand, and i wan to say soli to them.... Hope they forgive me... And soli guys, next time i won't dun dirnk alcohol anymore...

tagged

1. Whats your ambition?
I think singer lo... Cos i love to sing... Bt... My voice.... is nt gud... T.T

2. How often do you think of commiting suicide?
Erm.. I don't have idea... If someone commite suicide, d ppl is very stupid... Bcos every problem can b solve... Just wan to see u hv d brave to solve it o nt...

3. Do you think you have enough confidence?
Sometime lo... So when i face problem in friendship... Mmm... I will b weak and no confidence!

4. How many babies you want?
Mmm.... At least two lo.... One boy, one gal.... Haha.... =)

5. Do you believe in seeing a rainbow after the rain?
Ya... I love to see it... I think rainbow will bring u luck...

6. What is your goal for this year?
Erm... Gt good result in my foundation... And.... Friendship lo... Friendship must b best... Haha!

7. Do you believe in eternity love?
Sure lo...

8. Are you missing someone now?
I missed a lots... I miss my grandma, my primary friends, my secondary friends, my pets, my lover etc..

9. What feeling do you love most?
Mmm... Take care me... Treat me like a child... Haha... Just joke la... Erm... And... Love me lo... Lolx...

10. What are the requirements you wish from the other half?
Erm.. No need too handsome or pretty... The most important thing is loves me,cares me and understand me.... Hehe!!!

11. Is there anything u wanna tell the ppl u hate?
If i did anything wrong, please tell me and advise me... Otherwise i really dunno wat i did wrong to u all... So please tel me and dun try to treate me as a stupid ppl and hate me!

12. Do you cherish every single friendship of yours?
Of cos...

13. What does flying means to you?
Something that has get wings will fly or without wings also can fly... Sometimes flying can make u freedom... I think so.

14. What do you crave for the most currently?
Pass all d subject in this semester and dun retake anymore...

15. What is friend for?
Care ppl, love ppl, help ppl... And somtimes teman ppl who he/she is alone..

16. Describe the person who tagged u in 7 words.
Erm... Friendly, care ppl, clever, love to make joke and love to play game...

17. What have you done to yourself make yourself happy?
Play music and singing... Erm... Sometimes will thing some happy things lo...

18. What will you become in another 10 years to come?
I dun hv idea... God will let u noe in sercet sign...

19. What is your lucky number?
Erm... I dunno wor.... Erm... May b is... 1, 5, 20 and 23

20. What is your favourite food?
Erm... Everytime... No spicy can oredi... Haha...

Instructions : Remove one question from above and add in your personal question. Make a total of 20 questions and tag 8 people. List them out at the end of the post. Notify them in their cbox that they've been tagged. Whoever does the tag will have blessings from all.

1. Christine
2. May may
3. Kelly
4. Kai Zhen
5. Foo Sheng
6. Shawn
7. Berry
8. Kim Foo

拥有开心的回忆，但却害怕寂寞和孤单！

通常开心的回忆留给自己就好了。。。
不在乎给你开心回忆的人有没有把它当作这是你和他之间的回忆。。。
因为但你越在乎他时，你越痛苦。。。
那为什么不要往好的反面来看呢？
那不是更轻松，不需要烦，不必痛苦。。。



我就是这样子的人。。。
每次都胡思乱想，弄到自己都不快乐。。。
我是很怕寂寞和孤单的人。。。
我越孤单，我越会胡思乱想。。。


天啊！谁可以帮我？？？

Enjoying Wednesday...

Today i really very enjoy today... Bcos i just hv gt one class in morning... Then i go to pikachu's hse to play... Haha... At first, i play computer game wif Foo Sheng... Then v decided to go Midvalley... Haiy... Mana tau, gt a lot of malu thing happen leh... Erm... I dun wan to tel u all cos it's really very malu... T.T... Haha... Then v go back home and continue play our computer... Haha...

爱在你伤口

一个伤口复原要多久
一道疤痕会留多久
我不是害怕痛
只怕永久
忘记需要多少次泪流
我记忆却不停提醒我
我越想放开却越靠近
你早已烙印在我胸口
那些曾甜蜜的拥有
已经分不清是爱还是伤口
伤 像是一个合不拢的口
不管我用多少的温柔
也使唤不回你的昨日
我的感动
爱 爱的越深就越不敢痛
你已深深的刺穿我内心深处的角落
我疼
不是因为你伤了我
而是你让我真正明白
爱在你伤口
XXX, 我还爱你！

你爱过吗？

曾经爱过...
才知道爱情的味道...
爱错了...
才知道那道爱情的感觉...
原来是能够那么的踏实的...
不曾爱情...
又怎能知道...
自己那其实真正药的是什么？
爱错了...
才能知道自己该爱是怎么样的人...
不曾痛苦...
又能知道快乐是能够多么的甜蜜？

暗恋

等待你的微笑
哪怕只是微微地牵起嘴角

等待你的关心
哪怕只是简短的几句问候

等待你的回光
哪怕只是当我是擦肩而过的路人甲

偶尔，我会...
羡慕你对他的关心问候
羡慕你对他的贴心接送
羡慕你对他的细心呵护

但，
我却没有那股勇气把这些话告诉你

只能，
偷偷看着你和他甜蜜的背影
偷偷地擦眼泪
偷偷地告诉自己

总有一天，
你会发现我的存在。

光头。。。

我好害怕。。。

我怕我剃光头了会不好看。。。

我真的不知明天朋友会怎么看我。。。

我真的好怕， 好怕。。。

希望我朋友不会有一些很怪的眼神来看待我。。。
T.T

心好痛!!!

一下子心突然觉得好酸。。。 这是怎么一会事？为什么会这样？

当我知道他们在一起时，我感觉上好伤心。。。
是因为他们在一起谈天，吃饭，睡觉吗？
这就叫吃醋吗？

我好讨厌这种感觉喔。。。

谁能救救我???

Tagged

The last person to tag you is?
Erm... I think yew hong lo...



What relationship of you with him/her?
Friend



Your 5 impression towards him/her.
Clever, talkative, likes to act like child, crazy, joker...



The most memorable thing that he/she had done for you.
Erm... I think dun hv lo... I forget oredi... Soli!!!



The most memorable thing that he/she has say to you.
I forget oredi...



If he/she becomes your lover, you will…
Erm... I think i won't lo... Bcos v nt gay... Haha... Swt ar...



If he/she becomes your enemy, you will...
Erm... I think v won't b enermy lo... Ever never....



If he/she becomes your lover , he/she has to improve on..
Erm... Dun b so crazy... Haha....



If he/she becomes your enemy , the reason is...
Ermmm... May b bcos of a girl lo... Haha!!!

The most desirable things to you to do to him/her.
Erm... I know him nt so well yet...

The overall impression to he/her is
Joker!!!

How do you think the people around you will feel about you?
Talkative, sometime emo, noisy, voice very loud...

The character for you for yourself is?
Erm... I dun hv any idea... Haha:)

the thing you hate about yourself is?
lazy to do everything..

The most ideal person you want to be is?
Wang Lee Hom

For the person who cares and likes you, say something about them.
thanks for being so care of me and i very appreciate it lots... Erm... Bside tat, i will love them and care too..=)

Ten people to tag
1. yew hong 2. foo sheng 3. berry 4. kai zhen 5. kelly
6. kim foo 7. kelvin 8. Shawn 9. munnie 10. joanne

Who is no.2 having relationship with?
Erm... Brother gua... Haha... He very gud to me la...

Is no.3 a female or a male?
female

If no.7 and no.10 be together would it be a good thing?
won't b lo... i think.. bcos they won't like to b lover... Haha...

How about no.5 and 8?
Haha... Impossible lo... Cos 5 just someone luv her oredi... And 8... I nt sure...

What is number 1 studying for?
same as me.. foundation in sc..and gonna proceed to food sc & nutrition..

When was the last time you have chat with them?
Yesterday...

Is number 4 a single?
yup..

Talk something about no.2.
He very handsome guy, kind to everyone, care ppl... I think especially me... Haha... Mayb la... Cos gt one day it was raining... He teman me go back... Haha... And last nite, he oso teman me go back lo, bcos it's 12 sumthing oredi... Haha... ... He older than me... Now he's 20 years old and i just 18... Haha... he love to play guitar... At first time i saw him, he really is a emoguy... He nt so talkative to someone who he dun know so well... Haha... He like to say he's a uncle... Wakakaka... Erm... I think nth much la... O ya, He gt a lot of nickname... If u wan to noe, u go n ask him la...

花名!!!

为什么，为什么...

为什么在一瞬间有那么多花名？

Haiy... 算啦，大家开心就好啦！

我希望我的花名不可以泄露出去!
哈哈!!!

Pizza...za...za...za..za

Yeah... Today v can eat pizza... Today our parents nt at home... So v order pizza lo... Lolx... Cos everytime when our parents go out, v cook no much... So v order pizza for our supper lo... haha... so delicious... Hahahaha!!!

I miss "you“....???

Finally it's time tat u leave me and go away...
I din think tat d time is so fast to let u leave me....
How can u just leave me and din say anything...
I felt sad... .... ...
It's bcos i lost u teman me....
U din stand bside of me, i felt boring...
I really very miss you...
Hope u will b fine and all d best...






Bye.... My bunny!!!

Volleyball Fire @@@

Today is my first day to play volleyball.... I long long long time din play oredi... All d skill i forgot how to use oredi... When we start to play, i feel like noob... Cos. i really dun hv idea how to play oredi... After an hour, i can play... ... no really well la... Bt gud lo... Lolx... Zha dao.... Haha...

When i went back home, i feel tired and pain... I long time din exercise oredi.... Erm... So i won't give up easily... Haha... Gudnite guys!

Holiday life T.T

So boring.... Never go any trip in tis holiday.... Just stay at home play sdo, watch movie, date wif fren, sleeping, play msn, search thing.... .... .... Haiy... So damm boring....

Luckily my parents ask us go genting... They went to watch concert... So they brought us go genting too lo... Lolx.... We stayed at there... I and my fren din play much game, bcos we need to look after all the small kid.... So we dun have any fun at there.... We had a walk at midnight and take photo....... Tat's all for my holiday... How bout u all guys????

Unlucky day

Haiy...... Today need to go to sckul again... Only our college gt sckul for today n friday... OMG... It's damm tired and boring today, bt quite busy la... Cos i was rushing to do my physic report... OMG... I used 2 to 3 hours to finish it.... And summore i hvn't do my physic revision yet... The physic test paper very difficult for me.... I was blur n tired at the time... I feel like want to sleep... Haha...

After sckul, i went to Pikachu's hse... I wnet to visit my baby... 'Si Wong'.... Swt ar... I really dunno y they wan to put tis kind of name la.. It's seem like weired la..

Haiy... No eyes c ar... Haha....

Sunway Happy Time

Hi guys, I’m back… haha… Today I really have a lot of fun… Haha… my best friend, Yu Jin, fetch me to go to Sunway Pyramid… At first Sarah n me decide to skating since my sister, Eunice, go to shopping wif dancer teacher, but yu jin dun wan… so… we din skate oredi…

When we reached there, we went to play the machine game… thd machine game at there is so cha… most of them can’t play at all… Den we walked here n there… I was keep on looking at d skating field… I feel I really wan to skate… so… I go skate alone… And later meet they all at cinema… wah… I feel very gud n freedom when I was skate… I hope tat tis feeling dun disappear in my life… Haha…

Den we went to watch movie, Mamma Mia… OMG… tis movie damn funny… It’s very nice movie… Actually tis movie can call music file… Those song that they sang…. Huh… Very nice…. I planed that I wan to find the song track…. I advice u to watch tis movie… Prefect gud… Gud until we oso sot sot when we watch finish… We keep on sing mamma mia… And act like them… OMG… We’re crazy…. Hahahaha…

After than, we went to play bowling n archery… Den we went to Station 1 to eat dinner… We ate western food… Haha…

Den we went back home… When I reached home, I saw a cute pet… I was surprised….
It’s my hamster… It brought by my cousin, bcos he back hometown oredi… So he let me jaga lo… Actually we gt three hamsters de… But, another two of d hamster was died and dun hv reason… So… Leave one… It’s so lonely… sad ar… If I am it, I will b cry… So, hope u can enjoy these photo that I took frm Suneay Pyramid… ^^



Now i'm rush to do my physic report... and tomorrow need to do physic revision...

Friendship>>>>>>>>>>>>

Know i only... I and Soon Ann's friendship so easy effect by outsider... More than 3 years already... I really don't know is he thinking about....

Just now when i went out eat dinner with my family n some of friends, he messaged me... he said 'From now onward u nt my brother anymore'... ... ...

The first second when i saw tis message, i feel sad... I feel that our friendship is so easy break-up... When i told my sister, she shocked... She said that he is my best best friend, also can so easy break-up... I feel like i'm useless... A friendship also can't catch properly... I dun have idea is he useless or me la.. Bt i think that is me...

Bt, wat i can do... I just let it be... I dun want to look back anymore... I dun want just stay d same place... I dun want...

Now i really very enjoy my life... No need to waste money, no need to waste time, no need ponteng class so much...

Haha... Anyway, just forget bout it... 顺其自然吧!!! Haha... Tml i go to climb mountain again... This time many ppl are going... Erm... I think more than 10(including parents la)... I remember to bring my camera gotis time.... Haha... So, see u all guys tml... haha... ^@^

Stand on top of the mountain 2

Huh…….. I’m back from mountain… this time I n my fren climbed until station 6… Haha… Our parents climbed until station 3 oni… Hahahaha… tis time was more easy to to climb… I’m nt feel tired at all… I feel like wan to climb again… We decied that next week go again n at d time we go waterfall… Haha… But next week we go genting… so.. din climb lo…. Sad… haha…. Erm… mayb we wil climb genting mountain la… hahahahaha… sot sot oredi…. Hahahaha…. Wan to join? Haha… pay money la… hahahaha…

Guys, physic study oredi? Tml exam lo… I hvn’t study yet.. haha… cos I’m doing my physic report… sad ar… tis time report, I really dun hv idea to do… especially the result… I feel like it’s weired… haha…

Are we still friend?????

Hehe… Talk bout friendship again… Haha… Erm… Today he sms me again… In the message, he ask a lot of question… What I’m thinking before I receive the message, all the question also came out from the message too… Both of us are thinking the same question… But he thought more than me… I feel like I’m sorry to him… OMG… Mayb la… Cos I really dunno wat his feeling…

Ya, mayb I’m idiot.. But I idiot until I gt brain… he think that the room which I book is for three of them oni… OMG… it’s one of them said that wan to join and dun book so many room… So… I just let them join us… U see now is he fault or my fault? OMG… OMG… OMG…

I said soli to him oredi… Now see he can forgif or dun wan to b friend anymore only… Our friendship is on his hand… He wan to break, den break lo… I dun wan to force him… later he say me force him again… sad arL

thanks..

Thanks, guys... Give me a lot of comment... But there have many thing happen between i and him... So u all dun know wat's happen... These is sercet.. I won't tell out... haha... So, anyway... Thx, guys...

Neway....

Today i went to Neway with my friend... The science gang n some art gang....
Haha.. We have a lot of fun at there...

In between the started n the end, i had a unhappy problem happen... Tat's is my best friend, Soon Ann, he dun wan to share d room with science gang... I told him tat just join n make more fren n have a lot fun... But he don't want... So he angried n went back home early... I was very angry... I just igoned him... Some more he said tat i change already..

He said tat i knew some new friends and dun care the old friend oredi.. It's non sense... If i dun care my old friend, den y i need to help them to reserve d seat for them... y i need to keep in touch with them.... Only he...

He feel like i gt new friend oredi n won't find him oredi... All is his fault... He dun wan to meet new friends... And he dun choi me when i knew new friends...

OMG... I really give up to tis friend oredi... I really give up...

Honestly la... i more enjoy in tis group which i just knew them than him... I really enjoy it... I feel like i grow up... I nt like last time oredi... Tat's y i told him if he join some new friend, u will grow up more... Dun keep on in d same place... You must go n visit otheer places oso... May b those places tat you meet will help u grow up... I really enjoy... I really really really hope tat tis gang dun break... Keep on going... Tis gang is a gud group... U guys agree???

T.T my computer............ die oredi!!!

Oh my god... My computer kena virus already... My computer got many many virus.
So, my friend, foo sheng(fok tou), help me to 'kill' them... Haha... I bring my laptop to his hse n do it... So... He help me lo...

But got one guy sacrifice me use his computer to copy antivirus programme to me... The guy is James(Dai gor)... Haha... His computer also kena virus already... But i guilty... Because his computer formated 3 weeks ago oni... T.T...

Now my computer can use oredi... Bt still got a lot virus la.. Haha... Haiy, nvm la, it's ok d... At least can use can oredi la.. haha...

Dream girl~~~~

Hi, guys, me again... I want to tell you guys that i fall in love wif sumone...
Mmm... She nt really pretty, bt she cute... Everytime she like to act like a children... I knew her at chemistry lab in last semester... Haha... Because of her, i change all my subject... I change to those subject that i same class wif her... And because of her, i join her group, that's i mention the science class group... Haha...

But... Bad happen is came... Sumone also love her... but she reject, because she want to study first... So, i don't can 'kao bai' to her first... And the guy who love her also is my friend...

OMG... I really don't know how... Am i going to give up and let my friend to chase her???
OMG OMG OMG.... Who can tell me what i suppose to do?

Cute animal... ^^

Today, i and my friend, Yew Hong(Pikachu) buy a cute n bueeaty rabbit... Haha...
Before we bought it d time, we decided want to buy wat kind of pet....
We thought a lot of pet... Dog, cat, fish, duck, lizard...
Erm, lizard? Just joke only... Haha...
So, finally we decied to buy rabbit... Haha...
Guess where we bought it?...... It's in Giant which next to my campus... Haha...
It's nt expensive... Just RM 38... Haha... And the cage is RM 38 also... Haha...
But the bad thing was.... When Pikachu brought it back home, no one sayang it... So kesiang...
So, Pikachu asked me often go t0 his house and sayang it, if nt, it really very kesiang... Haiy...

Stand on top of the mountain

Hu............ So tired....

Yellow, guys.... I'm back...

I back from a mountain...

yesterday, i went to climb mountain with my parents early in the morning...

i was very tired & lazy to wake up in the morning... But my mum forced me to go... So, i woke up!

Haiy... The bad news was... When we reached there, it was raining...



So, we went to Pudu which is located in KL to eat breakfast... We went to super market to eat...

Ermmmmmm... The food was quite nice... But the market don't have any stall to see....



Den they plan to go climbing mountain, because at the time, the rain stopped...

When we reached there, there still had many ppl go to climb...



The ground was very wet and the environment was cold... The view....... Errrrrrrrrrrr......... these doesn't any nice view (even thought a normal view oso don't have).... T.T...



Althought it's tired, but we had a lot of fun in the mountain.... And sorry guys, at the time i forgot to bring my camera, so i didn't take any photo to let you all see....



Mmmmmmmmmm..... Next week we will go again because we just climb half way.... So i will remember to take photo and share with you all guys...



So.... Have a nice day.... Take care.... ^^

Long time no see

Hi, guys... Long no see already... How are you? I'm fine...

Now i study foundation in science second semester... Mmm... In this semester, i only have few subject same wif my friend, so mostly i'm alone... Feel like alonely... Haha...

But alone also good... Becuases i can meet more friend... Haha...
Now i knew many friends...

They also study foundation in science... They quite fun... I very enjoy to join their group... You can view our ' UCSI Science Class May '08 intake ' group (http://www.friendster.com/group/tabmain.php?gid=2170131)
Hope you can see we have fun on d day...
Haha... Ok guys, i have class now... i need to go... so, see you next time!!!

A New Start

yeah...
i so exciting to became a coach...
haha...
i do my best to be a good model to every participant...